I earned a ticket to hell today.
I was in the car line at a local Starbucks on my way to work. I was a little pushed for time as I had already stopped once to fill up the monster gas tank in my car. I thought I had missed the 'morning' rush as it was getting closer to noon. I was wrong. Apparently, there is ALWAYS a car line at this particular Starbucks. I was idling behind a subaru outback, musing about trading in my gas guzzler for a subaru. The lead car pulled away from the window and the outback just .... didn't move. Normally I am quite patient with this type of behavior. I counted to ten. The outback still didn't move. I finally hit the horn. Actually I had to hit it a few times before it made any sound. The lady in the outback glanced up and pulled ahead.
After she completed her transaction, it was my turn. FINALLY. The gentleman at the window said, "The lady ahead of you paid for your order. Here it is. Have a nice day."
Sigh. Not only have I acquired a new ticket to hell, I've also been saddled with a bucketful of BAD KARMA. I felt bad. I earned a second ticket to hell by briefly toying with the idea that I should have ordered an entire breakfast along with my latte.
Tickets to hell don't faze me, as we've already discovered. But BAD KARMA gives me the heebie jeebies. So I spent the workday attempting to find ways to 'pay it forward' - in order to reduce my bucket load of bad karma. I was not having much success. My attempts to help my co-workers kept being interrupted or superseded by more pressing matters like ... helping customers. I did have one minor victory. A customer wanted a new loop on a medallion. Normally we don't work on jewelry that is not made by our company. I okay'd it with the boss and had it done while the customer was waiting.
I know. It is but a small drop of good karma in my big bucket of bad.