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8.10.2012

sadness



"The only sound marring perfect peace
is my own heart beating, and I want to squeeze
it until it stops, and then I will hear nothing
but sweet
Silence. "

from to the edge
~ by rdg

xxx

8 comments:

J Cosmo Newbery said...

Ouch. Not a good place to be. Heart touching.

Adullamite said...

I looked like that picture that time we lost 5 nil to Partick Thistle....

goatman said...

Problem with sweet silence is that it lasts for so long, and so long, and so long . . .

red dirt girl said...

My step-daughter miscarried her baby boy, Jaxan, at 8 months ... she only had 6 weeks left til her due date. The doctors could find no heartbeat; they induced her labor .... he was born with the umbilical cord wrapped around his neck.

The silence will last forever.

xxx

Adullamite said...

Oh poor lass.
Horrible silence......

goatman said...

Odd, my trying to imagine the eternal silence of another being who never heard much sound to begin with.
And it is sad no matter how one looks at it -- he was not meant to be.

SL said...

So, so sorry RDG. Sending love and prayers to your family.

red dirt girl said...

thank you guys ... it is very very sad and she said to me simply, 'I'm devastated.' It goes against our sense of natural order - parents die before children, not vice versa. So it is shocking. And a lot to bear for a young mother with an almost 2 year old daughter .... the nursery was ready, clothes and diapers purchased ... She said she didn't feel like she miscarried, she feels like she lost a child. And she did.

Now that her father and I are divorced, I'm somewhere down at the bottom of the information pipeline. But we always get together when she is in town and I get to be 'grandma tia' for a day to her little girl. My children, her half siblings, are very close to her and will be flying out next week to go and see her. Lots of family in California.

I'll be sending a care package of hugs. I have no words. This is really a time to listen, not to speak...

thank you again ....
xxx